THIS BABY HAVE SHIFTED!

MOVED TO GREENER PASTURES!

as for the link! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

unless you want to read about my kuku life.

ASK ME!

ok, so my much waited school holidays are ending soon.

how sad can that get.

but on a happier note, this june holiday was really a BLAST!

yah yesterday's HEARTS outing was HEARTS <3, even thou not all of HEARTS turned up.
- Dr. Mel : cramps
- Nicole  : rotten eyes
- Prof Ivan : dunno
- Cherie : dunno
- NJcians : mugging
- the rest : dunno also.
nevermind, 070707. Thats what i'm loooking forward too!

ok. bye bye. and i finally went shopping today. yes
the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE.

where? Popular Bookstore! =D



oh ya, i'm getting really bored of my blog already. i think i am going to shift soon!

I HEARTS the song i am listening to now! this is the song that help my twin survive her A's. This is the song that is helping me survive my CTs now! HEARTS to TWIN! <3

i realized that I AM the SLOWEST to blog about SMUN07!

BUT BUT BUT. I have yet to photoshop my pictures yet! so they are not ready for public viewing!

SO MY LOVELIES! please wait!

SMUN is over SL is over. now, i have to bloody study for my CT!

URGH


i popped by the choir room today and was talking

stef: george, your hair is fugly
george: yah, as fugly as your body
everyone: burst out laughing!

haha. no harm intended. HEARTS

feeling extremely emo now.

the dad is overseas working now. the mum is leaving in four days time. gosh, i'm gonna have a lonely time again. =(

listening to an emo song, feeling really stonned now.

anw, nothing serious but i almost got hit by a car yet again. gosh, its like i don't treasure life or what? walking slowly even when the car was just in front of me. i don't think i'd be bothered if i really got hit by that car.



Alice in the Wonderland came to a fork in the road.
“Which road do I take?” she asked.
“Where do you want to go,” responded the Cheshire Cat.
“I do not know,” Alice answered.
“Then,” said the Cat, “it doesn’t matter.”

i feel so like alice now, not knowing where to go. or for some matter, who to turn to?
gosh!



emoing now just makes me feel like crying, but nah, i'm not going to.
i've decided that crying was the thing of the past.


anyway, i was quite surprise i maintained my cool amidst the screaming and shouting.
(:











i want that hug i had a 15months ago. one that i wouldn't forget. it was one that changed my life.

15months ago.

OVER AND DONE WITH.

maybe not. grrrr


my brain cells are dying. I am trying to survive the day here!


i hardly get to go online. i need proper food. i need a bed. not a prison cell

back to work . bye bye

 oh gosh! i realize that many events have passed me by.

concert. class bbq. now emerge.

i've got soo many pictures to upload. bear with me.

anyway, today's emerge session really inspired me and got me thinking. Its like God putting my life on a mirror. I looked at it and yupp, there are soo many areas to change. To think that it will end tomorrow, i will really miss paul and the rest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOOHOO

i'm not gonna waste my June Hols.

I still have my SMUN and SL to go. crap.

I don't wanna talk about my day.

I just wanna sleep now

Time and time again.

forget the smiles. forget the retardedness. say good bye to george.

there is a difference being emotional and sad. As of now, I am feeling sad. Not emotional, but feeling really down. Being emotionally shut down is kinda cool because it really allows you to do some soul searching. But being sad stops you from doing any and everything.

Right at this moment, I really want to swear but I can't bring myself to. Its just something that I cannot express. Many a times i would keep telling myself that " I will be back " be back to the same ol' george. Some how or rather, I am starting to doubt it. Not only doubting the change, but rather I want to throw in the towel, and give up on everything that I've stood up for. Everything.

Its quite sad, people that you love don't have time for you. Then again, its more of a I LOVE YOU rather than a YOU LOVE ME. Love is such a two way traffic. crap. and its only friendship.

The best friend(s) is mostly busy.
People in school think that I am crazy, literally. 

No, I am not ranting or what. But its times like this that i'm really feeling very tired.


Everyday, I feel like i'm being pushed to a corner and my limbs, they can't seem to move. I try to fight and i struggle but sometimes it hurt so much that i can only scream. Screaming like an animal trying to fight for survival.

I'm tired , very very drain and exhausted. I feel like digging a hole and hide in it. I feel so vulnerable now.
Ever if the breeze came , it would have swept me off my feet.

I am no superman.

I am no hero.

I am only human.

Wish i was better , wish i was stronger , wish i was everything that i wanted

but I am only george.

Emotionally, I am damn strained already. Physically, I am damn tired. Mentally, I am dead.

I swore I almost broke down on the train. There are just too many things happening all at once. I feel like a fool that is trying to keep his cool.

I don't have the energy to fake a smile and pretend that there's a rainbow at my doorstep. I can't.

At the end of the day, It's really painful to see people die. Death have been such a familiar word recently. Marriage death. Physical Death. Emotional Death.

I don't want my parents marriage to die.
I don't want You to die.
I don't want to witness any of these.

There is just so much that one can do to lead a normal life, for everything else, we can only blame the environment and the people around us.

I doubt i'd be updating anytime soon

[ sorry for the lack of maturity in the post ]

its seriously i matter of to go or not to go.

in any case, its been a hectic week. crap.

I need my sleep, my rest.